i appreciate your encouragement, and i'm not trying to argue, but i do believe that different people can have different experiences with quitting. yes, i know i'm an addict, which is why i know i can't succumb to the "just one more" trap. one puff will start the withdrawal all over again, or just drag me back in.
my plan when having a "weak moment" is to remember exactly what i said in my last post: a smoke won't make it better, it will only add more problems, and "just one" will always be too many.
example: i was wrestling with moving that ungodly beast, the conti trainer tire, from one wheel to another yesterday afternoon. it was a frustrating task, and ordinarily i'd go through 2-3 smokes in the time it took me to unhook the bike from the trainer, pull the wheel, remove the tire & tube, move both to the new wheel, put a new tube and my road tire back on the original wheel and put the new wheel on the bike, then hook the bike back up to the trainer.
i swore a bit, and the thought occurred that i'd usually have a smoke when getting frustrated. instead, i put the wheel down, had a sip of water, then went back at at. key point: the thought was that i USED to have a smoke, not that i WANTED a smoke. it wasn't a craving, just a habit-urge, and that was under 48hrs smoke-free. that's what i mean by breaking the association, and i don't think it's "bravado".
i also don't think it would be a healthy thing for me to get involved in that forum - i'm not having cravings, so i don't think i particularly want to read about people that are, or are dealing with them through another form of nicotine delivery. i'm just done with the junk..
cheers!
-mistress k
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