Ahh gotcha lol. Its just a change of pace from what I'm used to. I should be GRATEFUL! Living in gratitude is where its at, but its easy to default to the sourpuss side of things.

I'm exhausted at this point even hitting 12 hours a week on the bike (though there is another 10 hours in physio work and pool work). Aerobically things don't really suck, but a 2 hours ride is my longest back so far I think and it really made me muscularly sore. Thankfully my physio is keeping things moving in the right direction and the endless pool at home is well....endlessly boring but seems to be holding my aerobic base in place. I really want to do an effort to see where I am actually at, but mentally I don't think I am there and my physio wants me to wait another few weeks until I stomp anything out. I think all of the swimming will prevent drastic losses, but I bet I am at least 50 watts under my 20 minute power and probably more than that.