I am now some weeks into my recovery, I do not know how long, and everything is confusing. My wife has now reached her end and I can not use her as any kind of support in my recovery. My family is trying there best but are learning along with me what is going on so all they can do is pick me up. My children are the best cheer leaders I could ever ask for and my dog could careless about my mistakes as long as I snuggle and play tug-o-war wtih her.
I am at my wits end. All I can see is my failures and all those I hurt. I feel like an emotional vacuum. I suck up everyonse love and I never give anything back. I want nothing more then to love myself as much as I try to love others. I want to not hate the man in the mirror.
I look at my life and how I have gotten to the point where I am and I have to ask "Am I worth all this effort."
I know I love you guys.
customerjon @gmail.com is where information happens.
I am at my wits end. All I can see is my failures and all those I hurt. I feel like an emotional vacuum. I suck up everyonse love and I never give anything back. I want nothing more then to love myself as much as I try to love others. I want to not hate the man in the mirror.
I look at my life and how I have gotten to the point where I am and I have to ask "Am I worth all this effort."
I know I love you guys.
customerjon @gmail.com is where information happens.