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Goals for this week
5 swims Only 4, but total yardage was fine and I swam some fast 500s (6:08 and 6:14) so don't care on the lower frequency
3 rides Only 2, but they were both long
keep total running under 35 miles Close!!!
caffeine only twice a day (e.g. before workout and midday) not three times a day (blushes) Managed this on most days. Had a cold and that's what was making me so tired. Required lots of caffeine on two days
Be at gym at 6am or earlier each weekday See above regarding cold and tired. Made it there by 7 each day M - 8 mi run
T - 8 mi run +
2000 yd swim W - 6.5 mi run +
5500 yd swim Th - 8 mi run +
2500 yd swim F - 7.5 mi run +
5500 yd swim S -
2 hrs on the trainer S -
3h15 outside on bike Totals:
15,500 yds swum,
5h15 on bike, 38 mi run, also did 8.6 miles of walking
Eating was good M-F, meh on Saturday, bad Sunday. Must... not... purchase... pop tarts and toaster strudels... My new little brain trick is to think "what would my mom say about this food choice?" for instance, growing up, pop tarts were (a) a treat and (b) something we could only have after we'd have a healthy breakfast. They were not something we regularly ate as snacks (which is what I have been doing. I am a fan of pastries!!!) and I know I underate on Friday (as evidenced by being suuuuper hypoglycemic an hour into the ride on Saturday) which is a GREAT way to set oneself up to eat a bunch of not-so-healthy foods... my brain still thinks I can undereat and get away with it (i.e. not binge later). I mean I did it for YEARS. I am not sure why I want to undereat, as I do not need to lose any weight. One trigger is seeing super skinny girls at the gym. I would not trade my body for anyone else's - I love my body - but I see anyone skinnier than me and think "Damn, I want to be that thin again." Even though (a) some of the girls are undergrads and haven't gone through that transition to a more adult body (this does happen, right? I am fairly sure my body shifted a bit in late college/grad school to something more adult and less 18 year old) and (b) being that thin means having no shoulder/arm muscle and w/o my shoulder/arm muscle I couldn't swim nearly as fast. Sigh. I don't need to hear "your body is awesome, you can do amazing stuff" - but
I would love any ideas about how you learn to stop comparing your body to others'.
I guess I feel like I am doing really well with food, for the most part, but there are days when I am NOT and I am tired of them. I would like to remember my ph.d.-schooling w/o it being riddled by eating disorder memories. And that means to stop slipping. (Still trying to wrap my mind around the idea that this means both not restricting AND not bingeing).
Goals for this week: Last week of classes before finals week and then spring break! I FLY HOME NEXT WEDNESDAY!!!
- Swim 5x
- Ride 2-3x w/ 1 hill workout (I found a really good hill this weekend :-)
- Run no more than 35ish miles
- Be in the pool at 6 am tomorrow + Thursday
- Plan activities for the evenings (this is when I get the most anxious and or am most likely to eat poptarts and toaster strudels)
maybe she's born with it, maybe it's chlorine
If you're injured and need some sympathy, PM me and I'm very happy to write back.
disclaimer: PhD not MD