x2 on what you said. I have been touched by this through old Military classmates/colleagues who died by suicide. Generally it has been post deployment in war zones. I think we as a society have been conditioned to accept that this can be a casualty of war. Suicide perhaps from the will to succeed and better oneself combined perhaps by the effect of head injuries is something that we don't think about, but I suppose we should. In my case I get on a downward spiral if I can't strive to do something well/reasonably well (or get the most out of myself). In youth academics and sport were that outlet. In adult life, work and triathlon has been an outlet. I can't just sit there and do nothing and relax like many people can. In a way I envy that. My mind and body will become restless if I have to do nothing. You could put two rats in a cage and one will just gravitate to go like a maniac on the treadmill and the other will just gladly sit in the corner and relax. I think many of us end up being the former. If I am on a beach, I can't just lie in the sun. I'll swim, or run or build stuff with sand or when too tired for that read a book. I was having this discussion several years ago with a friend who has sport as the only outlet. I said, "what happens when we can't do sport....gotta find something else to fill the gap". Others don't need to fill any gap and chase any self "betterment" goals. Maybe they are lucky that they are not wired that way because as Jordan wrote in the front page article it can be a never ending spiral of "its not enough"!!!!