Hi there,

So in the past six months I have been gaining weight on purpose because I was underweight (59kg for 1,81m), which trashed my testosterone.
I might have to admit to a small eating disorder. There I've put it out there.

Now as you might imagine, the whole process has been a bit of a struggle to find a balance. One time I find myself not eating enough to support training again, start to panic, next I'm pigging out (on healthy stuff, but still.. calories are calories).
In the past six months I put on about 3-4kg's, which might not seem to much, but it was enough to get my T rising again.

However, I realize, if I keep eating a lot I might keep gaining weight, which is not part of the plan. So after the whole acute 'gain weight' part where I just increased the volume of foods I took in, it now is time to find a steady state in terms of weight and caloric intake. With my season really getting underway now, I'm still looking to lean out a bit, but stay at the same weight. (63-64kg for 1,81m).. ergo.. gain more lean muscle mass and shed fat.

I'm sure there's plenty of experienced people here to give me some pointers ;)
Thanks in advance!