You’re not an idiot, just inexperienced. We all progress in our knowlegde of the sport and have those “duh” moments where we look back and wonder how we didn’t kill ourselves. “If only I had known then, what I know now” syndrome.
But you did something correct by asking questions.
First, since it’s your first marathon focus on just finishing and running the entire run. I know this sounds weak, but running a marathon is not easy. Finishing one is relatively simple, just uncomfortable, but you want to run the thing, not Oprah it in.
You’ll find this will keep you coming back to do more. Too lofty a goal on the first try usually kills all motivation to continue. Plus there’s nothing worse than finding out at mile 22 you were a little ambitious about your ability. Pain doesn’t fade quickly in the mind.
Second, until you’ve logged serious miles, speedwork isn’t going to help you much. Right now w/o knowing more, I’d make the assumption endurance is your main limiter. Just go run alot and you’ll get faster. The more experienced you become the more “need” for a little speed work, but still not alot. I always err on the side of less intensity.
So the long run is the most important run each week. If you are dropping running frequency and/or distance during the week or long run, then drop the yasso’s. They are doing more harm than good. If you can bounce back after the yasso’s and crack a medium day of 8-12 feeling decent, then stick with them. It’s all about recovery and consistency in training, not one special session a week.
Do you jog your recovery during the track session? I ran the 400 and 800 in college and can drop quick 800 repeats on a walk break. Make me jog and my pace slows significantly. Your training for a 26 mile run, not the 800m, build endurance every way you can.
That said, you may get more benefit from a fartlek type run right now.