For 1-2 years now I have times of low motivation and have to drag myself to quite a few training sessions.
Just the consistent pressure of putting the sessions at some time during the day, live basically based on a training plan, constantly pushing yourself,…
Would be manageable I guess if I’d be really motivated for races and a goal but I’m not. I got to a place where I finish top 10 most races and AG podiums.
But the closer a race gets, the more my motivation fades.
Had only 1 race this year and hated it. Thought ok, some nerves before the race is good but usually disappears after the start. This time though I wanted to stop literally every second thinking come on, I don’t want to suffer, just stop. Finished it, most unmotivated 10th place ever, had no real fun even after the race for the first time.
What makes me not stop instantly though is the thought of how I used to enjoy it. The pictures of it. The successes. And I’d so wish it would be like that again. Always was the anxious type at races and hated it tbh but enjoyed it once the gun went off.
I think it’s just that effort doesn’t feel good anymore. I would continue swim bike run but low intensity, for fun. But I hate the thought of losing the identity of a triathlete.
Anyone knows these feelings? Anyone had success overcoming it? Maybe just wanted to vent.
Thanks!