What I posted on my family web page

Triathlon Forum
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  1. I have learned of the joy and happiness that comes with forgiveness. I am not a gurge holder but I had my bagagge and I have forgiven everyone in my life for everything, wether they think they needed it or not. I feel like an incredible wieght has been lifted. It is truly life changing.

  2. Taking care of ones self is neither wrong nor selfish. To take care of myself and my needs only strengthens me and allows me to be strong and confident person.

If I state “I am a damn good guy and achieving goals that heal and grow my body and soul is not wrong. I see all the good things about me and I love all that which means i love myself and I am worthile.” I am not being selfish because all of my goals are for the benifet of those around me. My family is my life and when I go up all those around me will too.

  1. I forgive myself.

  2. I will make mistakes and I will relapse into severe depressive states. It is a fact of life what stating it does is gives me the power to say “I knew there would be days like this and I need to fix what is wrong and be ready for tomorrow and not be stuck in yesterday.”

  3. I love the Beckhams/Whitemans/Mcdowells/Forthmans with all my heart and I want to be a positive part of y’alls lives.

  4. My dog is better than yours.

  5. I will do an Ironman in 2007. Peroid.

  6. Matt I know me and you where never close but I love you with all my heart and your family is a blessing to me and I am honored to know you, your wife and your children (this includes the little tadpole.)

  7. Texas is my home and it is the greates nation on Earth.

  8. Tric I am very sorry for all the lying and fighting.

  9. Hugs are the greatest things on Earth.

  10. My sister in laws are fantastic and I love you like my sisters.

12.5 My brother in laws are…uh…well…uh…swell. Yeah your the bees knees.

  1. If you have children your whole life should be about giving those children courage, strength and humor.

That is all I can come up with right now. My spelling is terrible but it is late and I am too tired to spell check.

Please responed to this in an open way. Negative or positive let me know your thoughts and feelings and hold back.

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Cool, Sounds like you are back on track with your life.

Dave

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  1. Taking care of ones self is neither wrong nor selfish. To take care of myself and my needs only strengthens me and allows me to be strong and confident person.

  2. I forgive myself.

Cant disagree with you on much of your post but want to comment on the two above as they are interlinked to some extent.

You much respect yourself to some extent otherwise you are going to be of little use to those you hold dear . If you dont respect yourself you will not make the right choices for you and that will ultimately hurt your loved ones

In the same vein: if you cannot forgive yourself and others, you cannot learn from your mistakes. If you will not forgive yourself - see paragraph above. It becomes self destructive.

Both are easy to say but hard to do.

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You mispelled “Period” in number 7…looks great though, sounds like you are really heading in the right direction.

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T,

Welcome back, stay strong.

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Jon, THIS IS GREAT. Very positive news and I am impressed at the progress you have made here.

But, I think you are making it hard for the rest of us with # 5, give us a break!

And as an Englishman, if you come this way I would be honoured to show you why I feel this way just as I would like to see your tiny state :wink:

Good to have you back, brother.

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#13 is key, but you do need to have most of all the other numbers taken care of to get there.

Best wishes,

Fleck

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  1. I will do an Ironman in 2007. Peroid.

I would make this goal more specific, put it in the present tense and start visualizing it now:
7. “I cross the finish line at Ironman Arizona 2007 with my wife and kids, with a smile on my face, feeling great.”

Pick the race now, and move toward that goal starting today. I know that there are other things in your life more important than this, but it is important to you, or it wouldn’t be on the list. That is OK. It is all good. Enjoy the whole damn journey that we are given.