Ok just wanted say something. Got an oddly high number of questions here are some answers.
I am no multi-personality. I am the same guy I just grow up some times.
I have seen a shrink and I am nuts. I have post tramatic stress or whatever is PC to call shell shock these days. The brain tumor made things worse. I am highly agressive during play and a thrill seeker with high marks. I am not a threat to others. I play incredibly well with others. Believe it or not.
I have no fantasy about killing my family.
The goat thing is completely true.
Lesson. Don’t figure people out by a few posts on a forum.
It took me many years to realize that I am perfectly normal: Screwed up just like everyone else.
I think one of the biggest problems we have in our modern PC culture is that in addition to “acting like an adult”, whatever that means, I’m also supposed to filter and modify normal thoughts and feelings, instead of just saying what I think or feel, no offense intended.
It amuses me no end that one of the main things that most people find makes me funny is the same thing that I worry about at work constantly: My ability to pull totally sarcastic and off the wall comments out of nowhere.
Personally, I respect you for coming out of the goat-loving closet.