I’m looking for everyone’s opinions on a dilemma I’m facing. When I set my season goals for 2004 at the end of last year I wanted to do 2 1/2 IM’s and had time goals for these. I was also going to do several shorter races but my two big races would be CaliMan 1/2 and Big Kahuna. Well, long story short, second baby was born in February and the training has not gone as expected since then. While I was averaging 10-12 hours a week before the baby, I’ve been averaging 4-6 hours a week since then. There have been a couple of nice 12 hour weeks but there have also been a few 0-2 hour weeks
Consistency is definitely lacking at this point. I’ve told myself that I should forget about the time goals for this season and I should just race for the fun of it, but now I’m starting to question how fun a 1/2 IM is going to be on 4-5 hours of training a week. I’m still able to squeeze in long runs and rides sometimes, and I’m in the 10-12 mile run range and 50-60 mile bike range. If I really made a push over the next few weeks I could probably ramp that to 14-15 mile long run and 70-80 mile long ride before CaliMan, at the expense of a somewhat shortened taper.
My question isn’t so much about whether I could finish a 1/2 IM, because I’m fairly certain I could, but at what cost and benefit? Injury risk is elevated, but mostly the enjoyment factor is gone. Not only will I not hit my time goals from the beginning of the season (which I keep telling myself is OK, but I don’t know if I’ve bought into emotionally yet), but I’m actually dreading the thought of this race. I’ve never dreaded a race before. I don’t want to dread racing- this is what burnout is about, no? Do I bag the race until I’m mentally in a healthier place and have the time to train more consistently? Do I just suck it up, run a nice slow race and enjoy it for what it is (a long workout with lots of friends and aid stations)? Friends and family have already made plans to travel to Folsom for this race, so bailing has a certain embarassment factor involved. What to do, what to do…