A few years ago…I was sleeping all the time, I was late to work, I didn’t want to talk to anyone…I had gone through these spells before, but after a day or so of good running, I was fine. This time however, I didn’t even want to work out. Well, I wanted to, but I would take a nap and think I’d go later, then never did. Soooo…after about a month of this (I hid it very well from everyone) I realized I needed to see someone. I went to the dr, who refered me to a phychologist. I was diagnosed with dysthimic disorder…basically a mild depression that comes and goes…not seasonal, since I live in Hawaii (although last spring when it rained for 40+ days straight I was seriously more depressed’ than normal)
That afternoon, they wrote me a prescription for Lexapro. Before I got the prescription filled, I suddenly felt better, I went for a run and it was like everytyhing was better. I had the prescription filled and took it for 6 months. I was sooooo much happier. I didn’t procrastinate on the things that would cause me anxiety, I was back to my normal self.
I stopped taking the meds after about 6 months. I still have a prescription if I think I need to take it, but during that time that I was on the meds, I looked at what things had caused me anxiety and realized how much easier it was just to tackle them head on, not delay and keep the anxiety going. I also changed a few things (I got a new job that I enjoyed much more, when before I was unhappy in my job, but didn’t really care to change it).
I thought it was interesting knowing that as soon as I had a solution (got the prescription written), I was much happier. Now, everyonce in a while, if I’m struggling with something, I’ll take the meds for a week or two, but for me just knowing that they will work if I really need them, and from what I learned about my anxiety/depression before has helped me mostly stay off of them.
I also know that I only told the psychologist about 1/4 of my issues, and realistically, I am probably closer to clinical depression than dysthimic disorder (this has also been confirmed by seeing another psychologist a couple of times).
So what I’m saying is that if you take the drugs, but dont’ want to have to take them forever, there are things you can learn to do to help. For instance, when you take the drugs and you deal with something one way when you are on the meds, take note of it, and make a point of making sure you’ll do that when you go off the meds. Yeah, it’s easier to say than to do. For instance, I know how exercising (running mostly) really helps me feel better, so now I make sure I run when I’m starting to feel that downward spiral.
During the time I was on the meds I also got another dog (now I have two), and when I’m starting to feel down, I take them hiking. Animals are a great depression/anxiety reliever, and they are soooo happy when I hike with them, and that makes me feel good.
Hope this helps.
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