Where is our other long lost hero? I know he was having some health problems. I hope he didn’t get worse without our knowing?
He is out searching the world for a ball-donor.
Just start a thread about how great Shimano is.
He’ll show up. And he’ll be grumpy.
– Big EE
Why? What’s wrong with him?
brain tumor… and that’s no laughing matter… I was worried about the same thing
Wow… really? I hope he gets better…
Freestyle are you home schooled? I think I rember once you said that you are ~15 years old?!?
Seems like you have a good thing going you get to check out the forum as much as those of us who “work”.
Daytime in the USA = evening in Australia?
Maybe he went to California with that chick?
I am alive and kicking - not in California currently. I was in the hospital for a breif stint due to some issues that I had with my stomach…not a big deal I dont think.
Well Tracy is in California and I am as in love with her today as I have ever been; maybe more. We talk all the time and it is great, I look forward to hearing her voice every day. I drove out to CA with her from Illinois, we had a great time. Went to Santa Barbara and checked out her appt (that she is already moving from this weekend to a small home). Leaving there was about the hardest thing that I have ever done as an adult. I cant help but to be pretty darn depressed most of the time. I get home…I am alone and think of her. Some of her clothing is there hanging in the clostet…she painted the walls…I sleep with her comforter at night. About nine days after I left I flew back out there for the weekend (last weekend) again - had a great time. I feel so good any time she is near that I am just shocked as a human that a person can make another person feel so “whole”.
I often hide from her (or try to) my insecrities that she will never ever come back to be with me. It tears me up that she cant make a decision on what it is she wants to do when her contract in CA is up…that is only 3 months (bit less) away. For me it is so easy - I would give up everything I have for her. To quote Billy Joel “she is my home”. I often wonder if I can be the man that I think she would want me to be (you may need to read that again to get it). It is hard for me to live up to my expectations of me and what I want her to see me as, I am not trying to be fake - just a better person. The other night I finally “blew up” on the phone…made some ultimatums and told her what I was really thinking…all on the preface that I am so madly in love with her and want her more than anything. I dont know if it was a good thing or a bad thing.
I am planning to go out there (Santa Barbara) for Thanksgiving…it would take World War III to keep me from going…and if there was a war I would get in the Turbo car and race to CA to make sure she was safe. I cant not wait to feel her breath on my skin…smell her hair. I will wait for this one, I know deep in my heart that she is the one…I know it. I just wish that she would come “home”.
thanks for sharing - Don’t know ya, but I admire your honesty. So often people let insecurities get in the way of what they really want to say - handing someone your beating heart is not easy - you are giving them your past, present and future to do with as they may. Not to be overly dramatic or anything, but I cant think of a more selfless or courageous gesture than you have made. Have no regrets.
-zoe
Wayne Arnold from Wonder Years once said something that i think you might be feeling:
“She makes me better than I am”
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Sometimes I wonder if I am a fool and should not be such a sap.
It is good to see that you are very much ALIVE in meny senses of the word
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