we need to get you into some other threads so this one will die. there is nothing left here that is remotely beneficial.
i'm concerned about your emotional well being at this point and i think interacting with the WhiteWizzard individual that decides to remain anonymous on this forum is not good at this point. take some time to reflect on things as you already have. heck find a shrink if you think you need to. or go pay respects to the demons of the pain cave and take your punishment into your own hands and become a stronger athlete. but at this point in the game, apologizing to a nameless/faceless/digital punk isn't going to make you feel any better or get you farther from this mistake.
it's time to move on!
that is all!
Tim
i'm concerned about your emotional well being at this point and i think interacting with the WhiteWizzard individual that decides to remain anonymous on this forum is not good at this point. take some time to reflect on things as you already have. heck find a shrink if you think you need to. or go pay respects to the demons of the pain cave and take your punishment into your own hands and become a stronger athlete. but at this point in the game, apologizing to a nameless/faceless/digital punk isn't going to make you feel any better or get you farther from this mistake.
it's time to move on!
that is all!
Tim