I don't know...but I have been thinking lately, during my last couple of running races this year, and my last tri in the summer, during the race I thought: this isnt as 'fun' as it used to be.
It wasn't as 'fun' as I got a lot faster. I mean a LOT faster and I went from just finishing a marathon to qualifying for Boston, from BOP in tris to placing in AG or overall. I am not bragging at ALL I am just saying, that as I got faster, I stopped chatting with the volunteers and other runners and started obsessing over my splits at certain points in the race, feeling like hell as its harder to go faster, etc. Then I think, damn I wish I had started this years ago maybe I could have been better, instead of Ms Average Age Grouper, and before I used to NEVER look at ages on the calf and now I do and ...well it was so much more fun when I was doing it: to finish. It is still fun, but its different somehow. I thinkI might put too much pressure on myself but really, who CARES how you place? its not the Olympics. Still, I do enjoy the challenge of pushing myself farther than I thought I could go. But sometimes I want to be the 'yeah I am just running and having a good time' person again. Ok it IS fun when you do well but I used to have more fun when I was high fiving everyone and just being a goof instead of worrying about mile splits. Anyone else relate?
It wasn't as 'fun' as I got a lot faster. I mean a LOT faster and I went from just finishing a marathon to qualifying for Boston, from BOP in tris to placing in AG or overall. I am not bragging at ALL I am just saying, that as I got faster, I stopped chatting with the volunteers and other runners and started obsessing over my splits at certain points in the race, feeling like hell as its harder to go faster, etc. Then I think, damn I wish I had started this years ago maybe I could have been better, instead of Ms Average Age Grouper, and before I used to NEVER look at ages on the calf and now I do and ...well it was so much more fun when I was doing it: to finish. It is still fun, but its different somehow. I thinkI might put too much pressure on myself but really, who CARES how you place? its not the Olympics. Still, I do enjoy the challenge of pushing myself farther than I thought I could go. But sometimes I want to be the 'yeah I am just running and having a good time' person again. Ok it IS fun when you do well but I used to have more fun when I was high fiving everyone and just being a goof instead of worrying about mile splits. Anyone else relate?