I have a significant race coming up in a couple of weeks for which I have been training consistently (except for some time off for a crash and an early year flu).
I am not fast.
I have never been fast.
I will never be fast.
I am a bit older , a bit larger and , except for the swim, quite a bit slower than mop. But I get the job done.
Here is the dilemma: The group with which I train is solid (some pros who have won more than a few 1/2 and full IM's, age groupers who consistently place and qualify for Kona….you get the picture) AND has a good number of newbies who are making good progress due to a stellar coach.
The dilemma: Despite knowing that I have done the work and that I can complete the course, I am spending waaaay too much time trashing myself, my abilities and my body to the point where I am considering NOT doing this race (a 1/2 - of which I have done 6 or so) because I feel that I have not improved enough and, to be honest, am almost ashamed to be amongst those with whom I train (many will be doing this race also).
I know that I'm not the only one……What do you tell yourselves when you're busy digging the pit of "not good enough" ?
I am not fast.
I have never been fast.
I will never be fast.
I am a bit older , a bit larger and , except for the swim, quite a bit slower than mop. But I get the job done.
Here is the dilemma: The group with which I train is solid (some pros who have won more than a few 1/2 and full IM's, age groupers who consistently place and qualify for Kona….you get the picture) AND has a good number of newbies who are making good progress due to a stellar coach.
The dilemma: Despite knowing that I have done the work and that I can complete the course, I am spending waaaay too much time trashing myself, my abilities and my body to the point where I am considering NOT doing this race (a 1/2 - of which I have done 6 or so) because I feel that I have not improved enough and, to be honest, am almost ashamed to be amongst those with whom I train (many will be doing this race also).
I know that I'm not the only one……What do you tell yourselves when you're busy digging the pit of "not good enough" ?