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If I am not training much and/or I have a lot of free time, I spiral into my depression and don't eat (I play mind games with myself so that I don't think about food at all and therefore never get hungry and simply don't need food).
Unstructured time is a huge trigger for me. Retrospectively, I can say that the reason I went from being OK out of high school to relapsing in college was going from a lot of structure to very little.
I have learned to structure all of my time but if I get to some afternoon that I have planned out, and want to read a book instead, I can do it and change that plan. But just having that plan initially is very helpful. Vacations are great for a couple days but not having much to do over them becomes a nightmare.
I've had that need for structure for all of my life - my mom says as a kid I was always asking where we were going and who would be there. On snow days I would create imaginative worlds like playing "ski lodge" and create a schedule for the day (xc skiing, read, snowshoe, etc).
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That way, I don't have excessive time for introspection or privacy to hide my lack of eating and I feel good physically.
I think introspection - for me at least - is helpful. I spend an hour or so a day writing in my journal about the day and whatever comes to mind. It's a huge part of processing stuff for me.
maybe she's born with it, maybe it's chlorine
If you're injured and need some sympathy, PM me and I'm very happy to write back.
disclaimer: PhD not MD