Totally unrelated to my mortgage thread...

I think I'm depressed. My wife thinks so too. Life has been an epic shit storm, on personal, marital, and professional fronts for a little while now. I feel like it's all I can do to hunker down and weather the storms, rather then be proactive and attack/fix my problems. I have no energy or drive for my workouts. I'm procrastinating making some pretty big decisions at work. I just feel behind on everything.

I've never been on anti-depressants or anxiety medication. I'm usually an even keeled guy, but, do deal with some intense anxiety (mind is often racing, I have a hard time leaving thoughts or work unfinished, etc). I don't know what to expect wrt medication or if I should be exploring other options.

Part of me doesn't like the idea of blunting my feelings (if that's even what the medication does) and would prefer to try anything else to right the ship. I don't know if my emotional state is contributing to my problems, or just caused by them.

I'm not sure if I need to HTFU or seek help.

Three sentences into your post, I said, out loud, "now." The brain is a wonderful, complex, fucked up thing and chemical imbalances can cause hellish results, many of which can be corrected quite easily. Make an appointment today! Despite your Canadianity, I like having you around this place and would like to keep seeing you here ...

What if it is my Canadianity that is causing the depression??

Remind yourself, at least you're not French Canadian :)

I know I've taken some jabs at you off and on with the political stuff, but man - I'm really sorry to hear this, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. 7 years sounds like you've really kept up the good fight though. My thoughts are with you and your family.