That's what happened to me too. I got put on Celexa, and after a couple of days I started to trigger up, and after about a week I was really triggered up. I still can't figure out what I spend close to $4000 on, though part of it was going out :) What the doctors explained to me was that even if an anti-depressant triggered a manic/hypomanic episode, only people who are bipolar will have that reaction, it's already there and just gets brought out by the medication. I really struggled with that once I went of Celexa, it didn't go away. I couldn't stick the genie back in the bottle, and I couldn't understand that at all.
I can see what you're saying about the meds and doctor's supervision. I guess I'm used to seeing Seroquel, while powerful, as sort just a regular thing now. I'm so physically dependent on it at this point that even at 600mg it can take me an hour + to fall asleep. When I first started out at 100mg I was falling asleep in under 5 minutes. It's crazy to me that it gets prescribed at around 25mg for insomnia. I've taken Nyquil DM on it (I did ask the pharmacist, who was horrified and said that would be dangerous, and then when I said how long it takes to fall asleep, was like 'yeah, go ahead, you'll be fine).
Your memory is better? Wow. I actually went on a trial study (all double blind) of intranasal insulin, b/c they've found that to help improve memory in people with Alzeihmers, and wanted to see if it would help w/the memory and focus that gets screwed up w/bipolar. That was something else I still struggle with, why even when I'm stable I still can't focus the same as I could prior to first triggering. I dropped out of the study b/c the appointments I had to go in for where always during the day, and I couldn't be doing that constantly w/work.
Hmmm, not sure about the anger. After he hit me (gunning it right on a red even though he was fully stopped when I entered the intersection on a green) I stood in front of his car slamming/hitting his hood and screaming/swearing at him about what an idiot he was and that it was my right of way. He looked awfully freaked out, but I still say, he hit me with an SUV! I would've LOVED for him to get out of the car, so maybe that is over the top. I can be quick to anger sometimes though.... :)
You're actually making me want to go back and ask about other meds. I don't want to take the med to help me wake up (I think he mentioned Alertec?), or to take meds for meds, but maybe there is something else. Like I said, I guess I've just gotten used to trying to optimize my ability to function by changing the dosage. Before any of this happened, I always thought 'crazy' people went off their meds b/c they were crazy, then I realized how horrible the medications can be.
I'd also never thought of the eating and bipolar being connected. I can see how it is emotional/control based for me though.
I can see what you're saying about the meds and doctor's supervision. I guess I'm used to seeing Seroquel, while powerful, as sort just a regular thing now. I'm so physically dependent on it at this point that even at 600mg it can take me an hour + to fall asleep. When I first started out at 100mg I was falling asleep in under 5 minutes. It's crazy to me that it gets prescribed at around 25mg for insomnia. I've taken Nyquil DM on it (I did ask the pharmacist, who was horrified and said that would be dangerous, and then when I said how long it takes to fall asleep, was like 'yeah, go ahead, you'll be fine).
Your memory is better? Wow. I actually went on a trial study (all double blind) of intranasal insulin, b/c they've found that to help improve memory in people with Alzeihmers, and wanted to see if it would help w/the memory and focus that gets screwed up w/bipolar. That was something else I still struggle with, why even when I'm stable I still can't focus the same as I could prior to first triggering. I dropped out of the study b/c the appointments I had to go in for where always during the day, and I couldn't be doing that constantly w/work.
Hmmm, not sure about the anger. After he hit me (gunning it right on a red even though he was fully stopped when I entered the intersection on a green) I stood in front of his car slamming/hitting his hood and screaming/swearing at him about what an idiot he was and that it was my right of way. He looked awfully freaked out, but I still say, he hit me with an SUV! I would've LOVED for him to get out of the car, so maybe that is over the top. I can be quick to anger sometimes though.... :)
You're actually making me want to go back and ask about other meds. I don't want to take the med to help me wake up (I think he mentioned Alertec?), or to take meds for meds, but maybe there is something else. Like I said, I guess I've just gotten used to trying to optimize my ability to function by changing the dosage. Before any of this happened, I always thought 'crazy' people went off their meds b/c they were crazy, then I realized how horrible the medications can be.
I'd also never thought of the eating and bipolar being connected. I can see how it is emotional/control based for me though.