If you can't find a therapist who deals with bi-polar keep looking. I have no doubt that all of this is linked. You can't treat one and not the other. You mention being on an anti-psychotic but that won't help with the depressions, only curb the severe mania symptoms. You have to talk to a doctor about getting on mood stablizers and potentially anti-depressants. It takes a while to get on the right cocktail but your life will change when you do. Therapy is critical in this mixture as well considering the coping behaviors you've developed.

STOP PLAYING CHEMIST WITH YOUR MEDS! Get services from your local behavior heath agency. Many drs. will work on a sliding scale if you demonstrate financial need.

I cannot emphasize enough, get on the right medication to stablize your bi-polar disorder. It is a brain chemical problem and therapy doesn't always help everyone.

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Jen

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