I've had a couple races (olympic, sprint) where I could have podiumed but "cramped" in the last couple miles so I didn't podium so no one would have to see me. Does this stuff really matter?
I'm pretty obese. Nothing I can do about it and I've tried everything. But I have a lot of power in my legs so do awesome bike splits (370 watt FTP, btw). 5'9" 295lbs. I know it suks.
But on top of the weight, i'm pretty ugly too. I have a huge hook nose. I have to wear thick glasses ( no contatcs bc of an early age eye infection). I am bald and my ears are fucking huge. Sucks because I try to grow my hair out but I look like the villain from the last action hero (the one with schwarzenegger).
I also have a problem with my smell. I smell disgusting. It's like a mixture of sweat, grime, and shit. I went to doctors and they prescribed me medicine, deodorant and cream but it just makes it worse.
On top of all this, I have a huge raised birthmark on the right side of my face that's like 5"x5".
I've never kissed a girl either. I once told a friend I liked a girl in high school and she was about a 2 but when he told her she looked like she wanted to vomit. I know I'll never find love. I'm happy living in my "porn world" with the fantasy that money will maybe bring me happiness one day.
Bros, is this something I should be ashamed of? I want to get top 3, but am so embarassed. is anyone else in this situation?
I'm pretty obese. Nothing I can do about it and I've tried everything. But I have a lot of power in my legs so do awesome bike splits (370 watt FTP, btw). 5'9" 295lbs. I know it suks.
But on top of the weight, i'm pretty ugly too. I have a huge hook nose. I have to wear thick glasses ( no contatcs bc of an early age eye infection). I am bald and my ears are fucking huge. Sucks because I try to grow my hair out but I look like the villain from the last action hero (the one with schwarzenegger).
I also have a problem with my smell. I smell disgusting. It's like a mixture of sweat, grime, and shit. I went to doctors and they prescribed me medicine, deodorant and cream but it just makes it worse.
On top of all this, I have a huge raised birthmark on the right side of my face that's like 5"x5".
I've never kissed a girl either. I once told a friend I liked a girl in high school and she was about a 2 but when he told her she looked like she wanted to vomit. I know I'll never find love. I'm happy living in my "porn world" with the fantasy that money will maybe bring me happiness one day.
Bros, is this something I should be ashamed of? I want to get top 3, but am so embarassed. is anyone else in this situation?
