My thesis defense date is in early December. I have to give a draft to my committee by November 21. That leaves me roughly a month to finish it, and I'm just plain scared that I won't.
Three weeks ago, I discussed this fear with my advisor. She suggested I make a grand master outline so I could see what I have done and what I have left to do. I did that, emailed it to her, and she said she'd read/comment on it over this past weekend. I haven't heard back from her, though I suspect it will be in my inbox tomorrow evening. One of the things I could use this for is to write myself a schedule of when I'm going to do what, I guess.
Setting deadlines for myself in the past has worked ok but I'm not good about estimating the time it will take to finish something. I've missed all of my own set deadlines (except for the one for the outline) so far because it always takes longer than I think. And if I set a deadline for, say, "by the end of Monday" and it gets to be Monday night and I'm not done, I'm not going to stay up super late to finish something that's a deadline I've set. I think it's healthier to get some sleep and just give myself an "extension." I've been working on my thesis on the weekends, I worked on it over fall break, but I have gone from super OCD in high school about doing homework constantly to a more balanced homeworking state of "okay, I am tired of this, I am going to read for a bit." Like today I ran, worked on my thesis, taught yoga, took a nap because I was exhausted, and now I'm working on it again.
I tend to write best in the morning, so maybe I need to get up and run, go into my office, and then if I have a time for a second workout later, go back and do it? I've been doing 2 sports just about every morning.
While I'm whining, I do have a good idea of what I have to do and write, but I wish I got a little bit more attention from my advisor. I know she is really busy, but it's frustrating to hand something in and not get comments for two weeks or more. When it comes back, I've generally forgotten what I've written.
My anxiety is to the point that it's interfering with sleep; it's an omnipresent anxiety that makes me stressed during the day; sometimes to the point I can't focus when I do sit down to write. I have meds to help with sleep at least but I'd rather not become dependent on them, defend my thesis, and then have to wean myself off them. I can discuss that with my doctor/therapist I guess.
Ideas from anyone about how to manage finishing it, or the fear?
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disclaimer: I am a PhD, not a medical doctor. The closest I get to surgery is topology.