Hi there,

So in the past six months I have been gaining weight on purpose because I was underweight (59kg for 1,81m), which trashed my testosterone.
I might have to admit to a small eating disorder. There I've put it out there.

Now as you might imagine, the whole process has been a bit of a struggle to find a balance. One time I find myself not eating enough to support training again, start to panic, next I'm pigging out (on healthy stuff, but still.. calories are calories).
In the past six months I put on about 3-4kg's, which might not seem to much, but it was enough to get my T rising again.

However, I realize, if I keep eating a lot I might keep gaining weight, which is not part of the plan. So after the whole acute 'gain weight' part where I just increased the volume of foods I took in, it now is time to find a steady state in terms of weight and caloric intake. With my season really getting underway now, I'm still looking to lean out a bit, but stay at the same weight. (63-64kg for 1,81m).. ergo.. gain more lean muscle mass and shed fat.

I'm sure there's plenty of experienced people here to give me some pointers ;)
Thanks in advance!

did you have your T levels tested or were you going based off of how you were feeling? I think i may have a similar issue but not positive without blood tests

Got my bloodwork tested and worked with an endocrinologist to rule out any other cause of extremely low T. She called it orthorexia.

Anyways, I think I'll try to go the gain a few, lose a few route and focussing on nutriënt timing more. More carbs in the morning, less at night, and protein around training and at night.
I've upped meat intake and started to fuel training again instead of doing a ton of sober runs and 4h rides on just water.

Strength training has been added to my usual core workout. Doing more push-ups, squats, deadlifts, lifting weights, ... but with race season here, I guess i should taper that down a bit. But should my food/protein intake taper down with it?

well thanks for ignoring my post above. you dont get fat from eating fat alone.