It's been almost 9 weeks (it'll be 9 weeks to the minute in 12 hours as I write this) since I crashed during training for Rev3 Cedar Point. Fractured T5-T6, concussion, whiplash, road rash on my face, lots of soft-tissue stuff to my shoulder. Trip in the ambulance, was sent home without much of anything which got my hopes up until I saw my spine ortho a couple of days later, when I was then braced (the ER didn't find the fracture at T6; I was braced due to the concurrent fractures and their inherent instability). I thought I was OK mentally until the day I got my brace; we drove home, and I couldn't lift myself up from the reclined position in the car nor open the door. I don't think I've ever seen that look of panic on my wife's face before, and I don't care to ever again.
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highly recommend seeing a trauma therapist afterwards. I saw one approximately two weeks after my crash because I was dealing with some severe panic/anxiety attacks, particularly while I was wearing my brace.
I'm still running into issues; swam for the first time on Wednesday and was OK until someone hopped into the lane with me; now I wasn't in control of my back again (still have another week before my back is full-go for PT) and I was terrified. I also had a full scale panic attack even thinking about getting back on board the bike. Heading back to the therapist on Monday to hopefully continue to ease some of that.
Additionally, I'm also dealing with post-concussion syndrome issues, which in particular has been troubling with short-term memory issues.
I hope to swim, bike, run, ski, etc. again soon. I'm working towards it in PT, and those things excite me. But the anxiety is still definitely a hurdle yet to overcome.
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