AWARE wrote:
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are we now creating & projecting this image of "successful" as well? Are we endangering women of any age to feel less than if they aren't a CEO or management-level with 2.4 kids, a dog, house, a Beemer & a stud husband? Is there a problem with someone being adequate at a job, getting reasonable reviews but not wanting to be the ladder-climber if they have a higher priority on being a stay-at-home-mom or a "spend more time at home mom" or even just want to be a "work less play more chick"? This really resonated with me. I've always been a pretty driven Type-A person - multiple undergrad degrees, law school, Ironman, blah blah blah ... When I joined the working world I purposely took a job that was pretty high on the quality of life scale (and pretty low on the pay scale ...) so that I would have a lot of time to pursue my other (mainly athletic) passions. I didn't feel guilty about that.
Then I had a baby. I expected that I would take my 12 week maternity leave and then happily drop my kid off at his (awesome!) daycare and return to work. While I'm not really driven to climb any sort of corporate ladder I do love my job and really and truly enjoy working. That I would return to work was a total no brainer for me ... until it was time for that to happen. I realized I wanted more time with my kid and that our life at home, as a family, would be a lot easier if one of us was more available. I never in a MILLION years thought I would want to do anything other than work full time ... but that all changed. And I was a little shell shocked by the whole thing.
After several months of agonizing and many, many tears I made the decision to "lean out" and go part time at work. I'm REALLY happy with that decision now and think it was the right one for me and our family but please believe I STRUGGLED with it for many reasons, including the feeling that I was somehow not doing my part for women's equality in the workplace. I had some serious guilt for a long time about it. There is a lot of pressure in many circles, including mine, TO have it all ... and it's easy to feel like stepping back is somehow not living up to that expectation.